Where art thou

I'm in a dire need of an escapade to a seclude island for a loooooong nice vacation.

Or a staycation at any 5 stars hotel in KL will do.

Work was hectic.

And i think i already reached the limit. Dah tepu.

Tu laa.. kalau kawen ngan anak datok dulu bleh ko goyang kaki.. holiday sana sini kan skan? Haha

Liar Liar

You've betrayed my trust before.
Straight up lying to my face.
And you think I'll not know what you're up to?

So, pardon me, when I'm bit skeptical about your so call 'work' schedule.

10 Syawal

Alhamdulillah, able to fast for complete 30 days of Ramadhan this year. Which tak pelik pun.. previous years pun banyak kali je dapat puasa penuh. Thanks to my irregular menses cycle. Heh.

But, cam biasa laa... mesti la ada yg tanya2.. tahun ni tinggal puasa baper hari.. and bila aku ckp tak tinggal puasa.. ada la suara2.. wahh.. dah ada isi ke...Huh.

Tu ok lagi... Time raya itu hari, siap ada yg pegang perut ni haa.. Erk.. dalam tu sumer lemang ketupat rendang je makcik..

We're into our 6th year of marriage. Memang la dah lali dah pun dengan soalan2.. anak dah baper.. bila nak ada anak.. laa.. tader anak lagi? kenapa tanak anak lagi ke? Yes, lali memang lali.. most of the time, I just smile and said.. belum ada rezeki.. doa2 kan la ya. But ada jugak time yg soalan2 tu buat aku jadi sebak.. bergenang air mata.

Kengkadang rasa tak fair pun ya jugak... sbb selalu the wife ni yg diajukan soalan2 tu.. as if.. bila belum dapat zuriat ni.. si isteri yg bersalah..

Padahal, dah macam2 si isteri ni buat. Jumpa doctor, makan ubat, makan vitamin, jumpa bidan, pegi urut, minum air akar kayu, pantang makan itu ini. The doctor and bidan even find everything normal, infact subur pun. Cuba la tanya the husband plak. Apa usaha yg dah buat? Most of the time, the husband sendiri yg nak pegi check ngan doctor pun taknak.. nak mkn supplement pun tak hingin. Tapi tetapp si isteri yg  dipersalahkan kalau lom ada zuriat. Hmmm..

Semua ni kan rezeki Allah. Mungkin kami ni sendiri yg belum bersedia.. belum persiapkan diri utk jadi parents. Mungkin Allah sedang bagi peluang utk kami to be a better person, better Muslim before diberi tanggungjawab sebagai ibu bapa.

Yerlah, kalau tanggungjawab sebagai hamba Allah pun tak boleh nak jaga, cemaner nak pegang responsibilities lain lagi kan?

Insya Allah... adaa rezeki ada lah.
Tak pernah berhenti berdoa.

Surprise!!

Few days ago, a video of a boyfriend surprising her girlfriend with a limo ride and huge bouquet of flowers for her birthday went viral. Macam biasa, ada yg memuji, ada juga yg mengeji iri hati.

Personally, lantak pi la mamat tu nak buat apa, duit dier. Kalau aku jadik gf dia, aku terharu teruk kot. Memang la org kata, material jek sumer tu. Belum kawen boleh la, tunggu dah kawen sok. Tapi, mana tau, lepas kawen pun dia still rajin nak surprise2 bini dia, kan? Doa jekla yg baik2 utk mereka.

This remind me of a surprise I received years  ago..zaman2 muda remaja. Though the surprise was rather small scale la kan nak compare ngan limo ni. But still, surprise is surprise, aight?

So here goes. It was the last day of high school after SPM.. We were supposed to meet up at the bus station before I'm leaving for my hometown. Bas gerak kol 9, kol 8.30 dia tak muncul2 lagi. Zaman tu mana guna handphone lagi. Janji nak jumpa tu pun call guna public phone je. So I thought, well he's not coming la ni. Just when i was about to embark into the bus, then I  saw him . Walking slowly towards me, terhencot hencot, with a bouquet of flowers in his hand (Ya, memang cam dlm drama, just bear with it.. :P). Rupanya he was involved in accident. Jatuh motor. His friend patah kaki still in hospital. He himself pun kaki berbalut, but still gagahkan diri datang to meet me. Ko tak terharu? My feeling that time? Susah nak describe. Terharu sangat kot.

It's the gesture and how it made me feel that time yg membuatkan the event always have special place in my memory. I remember how my heart was beating too fast like never before. I remember how I need to control my mouth from not grinning ear to ear to hide my excitement.

It's been too long since I last have that kind of feeling. I mean, for one Mr.H was not keen on throwing surprises (though I doubt this.. From what I heard.. For his previous relationships.. He was quite capable of planning sweet sweet stuff for his girls.. ) Also, because i naturally have great instinct which subsequently will ruin any good planned surprises...haha..

But yeah..

"People will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel" - Maya Angelou

Commitment

Once you commit yourself to a marriage, it means you have to take your other half into consideration in every decisions you make. 

It means do whatever it takes to make the relationship work. It means, find ways to compromise. 

Compromise. 

Even when it hurts. 

A lot. 

Sepi

bermain dengan sepi.
kemudian tewas lagi.

salah sendiri?
tanya hati.

senyumlah kembali.
umpama mentari pagi.

mungkin akan tetap di sisi.
menemani.
sampai mati.

17 Ramadhan

Alhamdulillah and what a bless to be able to meet another Ramadhan..

But this year it seems like Ramadhan berlalu dengan sangat pantas. It's already Day 18 today. Less than 2 weeks and we'll gonna say goodbye to the holy month.

So, yesterday, 17 Ramadhan was Nuzul Quran. It was public holiday here. Was thinking of spending more time reading the Quran (well.. it was Nuzul Quran after all). Need to catch up since I was way behind on my target. This year I set a target of at least to finish 10 juzuk of not only reading the Quran but also the translation as well. It's already more than half way of Ramadhan but I still on my 5th juzuk. So yeah, lotsa catch up to do.

But, as they say, we can only plan. Instead of staying home, we spent all day out to not 1 not 2... but 7 shopping malls!!

Sogo-->The Curve-->e-Curve-->Ikano-->The gardens-->MidValley-->Publika

Based on my Garmin watch, I was walking for more than 10km yesterday. No wonder by the end of the day, I felt like my legs were turning to jelly.

Pegi malls banyak2 apa hasilnya?

Mr. H got himself new pants and shirt at Sogo. It was overcrowded there. Rimas nak shopping. So end up nothing for me there.

At Curve pun tak shopping apa2. But We managed to get ourselves a 30 minute massage session (head, neck, shoulder) at Urban Retreat spa. Let me just say, I may come again to try their other massages. The therapist was good. Rasa cam massage kat siam je.


Oh.. ada la i beli something for myself kat Garden.Choc chip cookies kat M&S. Kah kah.. jadik la kan.

Buka puasa was at Publika. We had scrumptious pasta meals at Fahrenheit. And end the day with coffee at Oldtown.

It's nearly 10 oclock when we reached home. Performed Isyak, taraweeh and Alhamdulillah able to recite few pages of Quran before bed. So all is good, yeah?

As mentioned berulang-ulang kali dalam surah Ar-Rahman:

فَبِأَيِّ آلَاءِ رَبِّكُمَا تُكَذِّبَانِ

 "Maka, nikmat Tuhan-Mu yang manakah yang engkau dustakan?"

It's been yonks since the last entry.

American Idol also already bid their last finale this year.

So.. What happened for the last 7 years?

Got married. Bought new car. New home(s). A promotion. Yada..yada..

So yeah.. That's that.

What made me crawling back to this space? I dunno..  Maybe just need another medium to rant about all the problems in the world. Heh

Off for an appointment now..

Ramadan Kareem guys! 

Hello world!!

I'm back....

😉